Saturday, October 11, 2014

This is The End?




It saddens me to type this, but it must be done. I wanted to go on with the story, but I didn't know when, if ever, I'd be able to pick it back up. I originally thought that I'd put it off until the end of the Semester, but the longer I wait, the longer the story will "collect dust" and be forgotten about. I was speaking with a guy randomly yesterday and the topic came up about Fan Fiction and how he'd gotten into one story and the person never finished it. I had replied that that sucked and it made me think of my own. Yes, it's not the most popular blog, but I do know a few were interested. And you few don't deserve to be left to wonder when it'll come back. So instead of A) Writing the rest without pictures or B) Continuing to put it off, I am going with C. C being calling it quits and closing the book earlier than I hoped. I have wrote and quit stories before, but those were never personal. This is the most personal thing I have ever written and shared with "The World". I wanted to say this in "the end", but this is "the end", so I guess it's still appropriate. 

Jeremy is/was me. My mother was Veronica for as long as I could remember. I never understood how she could abandon us or why. To this day, I don't understand, but we do have a relationship now. Is everything peachy? Far from it. But it's better. I don't hate her anymore. And I'm not spending restless nights staying up and crying over where she is or when she'll come back. I don't know WHY I wanted to write this story, maybe I felt it'll help. But it's been years and I would like to think that I've healed. But there is still that little girl trapped inside me, always wondering, always asking Why? Why weren't we good enough? 

Maybe it's a good thing I didn't finish this. I had too many problems and it just seemed like it just wasn't meant to be wrote. Seriously, I've had games crash, but this one did it repeatedly. And If I were to continue, I'd pretty much have to re-create all my characters. I love them, but no thanks. That's a commitment that I just can't do right now. At this point, I'm all over the place. I just want to try lose ends I suppose. 

I would love to say that I'll be back with another story, but I'd feel really crappy about that since I didn't finish this one. But then again..story writing and taking pictures is one of the reasons I love the Sims game, so who knows? I DO know that I will still be reading. I got the opportunity to catch up a little today, but I know I'm still far behind. I hope you all understand and if/when I do write again, hopefully you will still be interested. 

Thanks,

~Tiff

6 comments:

  1. Awwhh man, I just wrote a very long and thoughtful comment, but it didn't look like it posted. What I was saying that I could tell from your comments on my story that a mother's abandonment is something that struck you deeply. I understand more knowing Veronica is your mom and you are Jeremy. Sometimes we all need a break. Maybe one day, you'll come back and finish the story. I understand about needing a break at times. I ended up in the hospital last month and I thought I would have to go on an indefinite hiatus.

    I love your stories and you are one of the few people I do read because I can connect with your stories. I appreciate you sticking with me as well for over a year. I hope you continue to write, but only do it because you want to and you're getting fun out of it. All the best to you sweetheart.
    (This is from Reagan L or Camille)

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    1. I'm sorry you were in the hospital. Are you better now? I hope so. I'm glad you're still writing too. When I have free time, I will be catching up (slowly, but I will)!

      That means a lot, it really does. I've always loved writing, but I figured I sounded cliche' and corny and never really liked sharing. If it weren't for the sims and me finding other people who enjoy using it for story telling,then I probably would have kept my stories to myself. Thank you again. I wish you the best too and yay, I finally know your name :)

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  2. Hi there, just stopping by to tell you I've nominated you here: http://theforsaken-valpre.blogspot.com/2015/05/liebster-award.html

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    1. I thought I just replied, but apparently it disappeared. I was saying thank you for the nomination and I really do appreciate it. Some time has passed though, so is it too late?

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  3. Oh man. Don't worry about finishing the story. I'm sad, but I'll live. I'd rather you not put yourself through the emotional drain of writing something so true to your life. That's hard, especially should someone attack a character. I'm not saying always stick with the "safe" stories, but I think you know what I mean.

    I enjoyed reading this, even though I really, REALLY got behind. Life has gone downhill for me for a while, but I'm trying to bounce back. I hope you continue writing, even if it's not for sims. You have a very creative mind, and I've enjoyed watching your style only improve with each chapter you've written over the stories I've read.

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    1. I do understand what you mean, and I do want to finish this story at some point, but it probably won't be with the sims (It's been a while since I've played :( ). I'd actually like to just write it with no pictures. Maybe one day lol. Thank you so much for reading and commenting. I read what happened and I am really sorry for your loss :( Thanks for the nice words too. It means a lot to me. I appreciate everyone who took time to read, follow, and/comment on this story as well as the first.

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